Dear all! My story is a recent one. 5 months ago I registered for karma removal meditations owing to problems in my relationship. I am 37 and I didn’t understand why I cannot find finally the person who loves me and vice versa. I had no hope but I felt that I must go. I had never such a relationship in which I would have been happy. I was seized by fear that I run out of time and will have no children. During the meditations I had shocking experiences. I had some relationships to be closed from my past lives. It was so exciting because this ‘story’ has continued in my dreams at night. I found myself in Paris in the 18th century as a courtesan. I was a rich lady around 40 years who could get everything important in life. I lived a boring life and used to drink. I could get everyone and everything I wanted. I used to play cards and travel a lot. I was often paid a lot for my company and then I paid for the company for men. I didn’t want to have a family, I loved to live this way. Despite I was lonely, I didn’t want a relationship. Perhaps I was afraid of to be disappointed. I didn’t let anyone close to me. I have seen myself to receive a letter and sneak through the town to a monastery and disguised myself. I went to a room where a boy (around 20 years old) having fever was lying in the bed. I knew that he’s my son. I bore when I was young and gave my baby to a priest. I couldn’t accept this and finally died due to alcoholism. Now I speak about his very easily, but during and after meditation I re-lived all happenings with all the horrible feelings. I went through all these deep sorrow. I realized that my son is my father in this life who doesn’t let me go and this might be the reason why I cannot have a relationship. After realizing this, I forgave him and for myself as well what I did in my past life. It was very difficult. When I could forgive I felt a great relief. I had 8 kgs loss within one week. I was distressed by this bad feeling for hundreds of years. Thanks Vicky for helping me to realize this. I think I needed around 3 months to be able to understand all this and open myself. During the last Christmas shopping, one day I met a boy. We started to speak and this ended up in love. True love. I have never felt such a beautiful feeling. He is the one I wanted. We are about to move together in the coming months. We are speaking about starting a family. I am so grateful to you Vicky!!! Thanks so much!
Csilla (37 years)
